Trying not to text is far from easy. We pretty much broke up with each other, with love still there, and still feeling we need each other in some capacity but not sure what or how or when. This is the first day we have gone without a morning text.

The rule when I asked if we should stop or only text at certain times was “text when you want to and I’ll get back to you when I can. She knows we’re still texting but I don’t want to do it in front of her when we’re spending time together.”

But I realize, as I read it over and over again, in the wording, he doesn’t intend to text me first.

Checking my phone and not seeing a notification, or feeling my heart skip when I do see something but it’s not him…

But then if I were to text him, would he see it and feel his heart skip thinking that it’s her?